Edge of Oblivion

I'm going out to California for three months so I can spend that backend of my summer there. But it was recently pointed out to me that, yes I will have an awesome time, and yes it will be so worth it, for my own personal growth and that of my band, although there doesn't really seem like there will be anything for me to come back to. No job, no money left, a family that doesn't really like me. In other words, I'm completely fucked. I hate having such a bitter frame of mind about the whole situation, but I just can't help myself. Because it's true